I’ve recently been feeling… not myself. I’ll admit body confidence isn’t something that’s usually at an all time high most of the time for me, but in the last few months especially I’ve been feeling particularly off about it altogether. I suspect part of it is having a boyfriend obsessed with body building, and probably in part being so immersed in the blogging world recently where I can’t help stumbling upon health post after health post, weight loss story after story.
I’ll be honest here- my goal isn’t straight up to lose weight, necessarily.
Cutting It Out
I’m tired of somehow managing to eat until I’m bloated and gross, my inability to say no to extra cheese on anything and a habit of somehow eating and drinking more and more without even noticing- seriously. I’m also sick of eating my feelings. I celebrate with food, I mourn with food. I’ll eat a ton after a stressful shift. I’ll “treat myself” every other day for one reason or another.
About a month ago I stopped drinking normal tea and coffee, instead switching to green tea/peppermint tea/any other tea that I don’t need milk and two sugars thrown in. Two weeks after that, Liam bought me my beloved Blend Active and I started replacing my junk food and excess cheese with fruit and grain filled smoothies instead.
And as of the last week, Liam is going back vegan- he was when I met him and was bossing his vegan body building, and so I’ve decided to join him. Not the body building part- just the vegan part. No more take outs, no more eating my feelings, no more processed gunk (bye bye chicken nuggets, my one true chicken love), no more cheese (goodbye my sweet prince).
How’s it going?
If nothing else, so far it’s made me concentrate on what I’m eating. I used to eat so mindlessly. Now I have to plan my meals and actually think about what I’m eating so as not to end up starving myself. But also count the fact that my sodium intake has quartered and within a week I’ve dropped 5lbs of water weight and an inch off my waist from not bloating after every meal. Bingo.
And while vegan food has been a challenge (see every one of my mum’s last facebook statuses as she made OhSheGlow’s quiche), it’s also tasty as heck and I’m actually struggling right now to eat enough to eat the amount of calories I should be taking in. I’m struggling to eat enough food. Who’d have thunk it? I’m not expecting miracles, but I definitely have more energy and it’s so nice not having a gross, bloated, painful stomach after every meal. Plus I’m enjoying learning to cook again, because cheese no longer flavours everything I eat.
I’m hoping to do some kind of monthly update to this at the start of each new month but I’ll probably end up doing some foody posts along the way! The pancakes I made recently were too good not to share and actually really rather healthy. Stay tuned!